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I love you

23 Sep

great love

I saw an article on Twitter on loving your cancer: http://omtimes.com/2014/08/loving-cancer-good-health/ My knee-jerk reaction was, “Are you crazy??” Love… I mean… Love something that has the potential to kill me or at the very least cause me a whole lot of misery? Love? Ok, so I read the article and it was good. More thoughts on that later.

My nightly research, wandering, link-hopping led me on a further path that had this love theme coming up regularly. My dear friend, Michelle, gave me the link to some music, which took me to Youtube and, being the compulsive link-clicker I am, I was soon going on to other related music. One link led to another and I found myself revisiting Ho’oponopono. Ho’oponopono is a Hawaiian practice of forgiveness and love. There is a lot to it, but, in short, it is a prayer you recite with healing intention:

I’m sorry
I love you
Please forgive me
Thank you

This prayer can be directed at any one or any thing. At no time does it mean you condone the ‘wrong’ that’s been done. This is also no pat, meaningless apology, just heartfelt love and a letting go of all negative emotions relating to the person, event, thing – or yourself. Yes, you could say it to yourself or parts of yourself.

I’ve used this prayer before, though very rarely. To be honest, I usually forget it exists. Once, I had a confrontation with a colleague at work. The next day, I dreaded going to work fully expecting a continuation of the confrontation – I don’t do confrontation very well – as the situation hadn’t been resolved the day before. In my flurry of tension over the situation, I decided to do some Ho’oponopono. I, rather dramatically, held my hand over my heart, focussed on the colleague and recited the prayer a few times. Arriving at work, the colleague couldn’t have been nicer. She apologised! She also explained why she’d acted the way she had. Now I don’t know if what happened was a result of the Ho’oponopono or just co-incidence. I’m going to choose to believe my little forgiveness ritual had its desired effect. I’ve used it since on other situations and had good effect. It may well just be because of my own mental state being altered. That’s also good.

Going through my mailbox a little later, a sentence jumped out at me, “What’s wrong with you?” It’s what we’re asked when something’s out of place. Or simply a “What’s wrong?” There’s so much negativity and fear in those words. It’s something that’s been brought home to me over and over with this cancer deal. Fear. Negativity. The doctor’s tone dropped to indicate severity. It was all over his voice and body language long before he got the words out, which were also negative, “I’m afraid I have to give you the news…” Why afraid? Why all the fear around cancer? Oh I can understand the fear! I can understand the anger, nay, the rage. I can understand the upset. But that’s the whole problem with sickness in our society. It’s wrapped up in fear because we aren’t in control of our bodies. We’ve handed that control over to the medical institutions and the supermarkets.

Today, I choose to take back control. I choose to love this thing that’s teaching me so much – ok, I’ll at least try. I choose to forgive my body for betraying me and this tumour for turning my life upside down. I choose to love my body and give it what it needs, treating it well. I choose to make mindful choices with what I put into my body. It’s my home, after all, and the vessel I will live in for many years to come. In moving into a home, I like to paint it a bright colour and make it beautiful, choosing my furnishings carefully. Why not with my body?

So, to this cancer I say…

I’m sorry
I love you
Please forgive me
Thank you

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Posted by on September 23, 2014 in cancer, healing, thought

 

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2 responses to “I love you

  1. Den

    September 24, 2014 at 11:52 am

    Bravo, Tint !

    You are approaching adversity from a place of love, a place of power but more importantly with the awareness of the power of “I”. “I” is the ALL, the ONE, the Universal Being we are. That which does not belong to “I” does not exist.

    Cancer has done something one would not expect it to do, it has provided you with a cure for all that ails you. This prayer is a small key to that place of being to which we seek. I wish you joy of your discovery, continued growth of your wonderful Self and peace.

    Thank you for reminding me of this prayer, I too will use it going forward. Your re-discovery of this prayer is a also a gift for me, for long ago I discovered this prayer and the power of “I” but I was not ready to embrace it. I am now. Your timely post has brought it back. I love you, Tint. Be strong, be brave, be wise and love with all of your heart.

    Den

     
    • tintalasia

      September 24, 2014 at 5:47 pm

      Den, I don’t know you, but I want to thank you for your reply. It came at a time when love was not what I was feeling. I wrote this blog last night and had to face a very persistent and negative doctor today who left me feeling rather low. Coming home to your comment was a huge blessing! Thank you! Thank you, too, for the reminder of that love. Cancer has had many lessons for me. I suspect that there are quite a few more waiting in the wings of this disease.

      Love, light and blessings to you
      Tint

       

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