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Twists and turns

Every good story has its plot twists, going off at unexpected tangents. It’s the way of things. Life does the same. It’s that unexpected promotion, the accidental pregnancy, the gift that makes a difference to your days and so on. The twists can go either way, but, in the end, they end happily (or have a really good moral).

Ok, waffling over. I’ve been asked what this is about me moving yet again after swearing that I’d be in my little flat for a good few years. I loved that flat. It just wasn’t to be in the end. I’ll start the plot twist chapter with a recap for some (sorry to bore you) for the benefit of those who are truly perplexed.

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Yep. That’s my zimmer frame. Because of the pain walking caused and the weakness in my right leg, I resigned from my job at Age UK. It was the kind of job that needed mobility… something I was losing more and more of as time passed. The morning after my last day at work, I turned from taking down my laundry and tripped. I found myself lying on the floor unable to get up at all and in terrible pain. I called Tat who came over with Ste and lifted me into a chair. She called an ambulance and my latest hospital saga started. At first, they wanted to give me anti-inflammatories for a torn muscle and send me home, as they couldn’t find a problem in my hip and knee x-rays. One doctor came around and asked why my femur hadn’t been x-rayed and a good thing too. It turned out that 9cm of my thigh bone was a spongy mess. It was a miracle that I hadn’t had a serious fracture yet. The decision was made there and then to operate. They put a titanium pin down my femur secured with screws in the hip and knee. That sorted the fracture possibility out.

The follow-up MRI showed no further cancer in any of my organs. A bone scan was done, but I’ll only have the results for that tomorrow. So far, it only appears to be in my femur. What does this mean for me? Firstly, the orthopaedic surgeon said that bone won’t regrow and I’ll never be able to put weight on it. I am determined to prove him wrong. Of course bone regrows! Thus the need of a zimmer/walking frame. I’ve graduated to crutches now, which give me a lot more freedom of movement and I have a rented wheelchair for outings.

I loved my flat, but not being able to do stairs, living on the second floor was somewhat impractical. To go to my hospital visits, I needed a 4-man specialised ambulance team to get me downstairs and back up again. I sadly made the decision to move. Poor Tat was being run ragged between her flat, my flat, and work, spending her spare time caring for me. It’s so frustrating not to be able to do anything without help. It is also a time of firsts, much like a baby. My whoop of joy when I finally managed to put my own socks on was something to behold… if I curl my toes up just ‘so’, I can just reach the enough to slip the opening of the sock over them. It’s the little things. Still, those four flights of stairs were prohibitive, so we made the decision for me to move back in with Tat and Ste, which will make it so much easier on my poor carer – at the very least, it cuts down on the amount of back and forth travel she had to do. They’ve gone out of their way to make me feel at home, though much of my stuff is stored in their loft. I have my name down for a ground floor flat or a single-level house, but that could take a while to come through, as they’re in demand.

Tomorrow, I have my first post-surgery oncologist appointment. I can’t say much about it, as I’m in the dark as well. I know they’re planning radiation, but that’s all I know so far. A lot depends on the bone scan, though my gut tells me the rest of my bones are clear.

It has been a scary, frustrating month. I don’t know how I would have gotten through it without the help of friends and family, especially Tatiana, who’s put her own life on hold to care for me. Thanks to Ste for his support and playing taxi, to his parents and brother for help with the move and their support as well and to Anne who rushed to my side to help and be my shoulder to cry on and bring much-needed laughter to our world when we needed it most. There are so many more thank you’s. Everyone has been wonderful from the hospital staff (from cleaners to surgeons), the ambulance guys (who each need a medal) who kept me laughing through awkward and often painful trips to the hospital, all the support staff who’ve kept the neighbours wondering, the lovely neighbours themselves who kept everyone smiling and would send up treats and flowers. I could go on, but you get the picture. My support system is still strong and help has come from all sides, often unexpected too.

On to the next chapter….  :)

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Posted by on February 28, 2016 in cancer, healing

 

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10

set in ice

 

Numbers are a strange thing. I don’t deal well with numbers normally, except for a strange habit of counting absolutely everything in site and some things not in sight… oh and memorising telephone numbers.

A little background to the story…

We’re in the middle of a rather dramatic change – again. Whenever I’m faced with change, I tend to go into varying degrees of panic and anxiety. I consider myself to be practical and adaptable and I am… really. It’s just that some changes seem to be harder than others. This time, it means leaving behind a much-loved place, its people and the wonderful time we’ve had for a complete turnaround in lifestyle. Nothing new there really. We’ve made far more radical changes than this. I did, however, ask for a sign. What I got was signs… over and over.

The first time, I was going into the old dovecote to hang out some dish towels on the indoor rack that’s stored in there. Smack in the centre of the threshold, lying face up, was a shiny new 10c piece. I picked it up, thinking nothing of it at the time beyond that it was a peculiar place to find a coin. A couple of days later, I was going into one of the rooms off the old horse yard and, again, smack in the centre of the threshold was lying a shiny 10 cent piece, face up. This time it got my attention and I walked off pondering it a little. It went a little beyond the uncanny when I went into the kitchen later to yet again find, smack in the centre of the front of the basin where I was to wash salad greens… you guessed it… another 10 cent piece, lying face up. There’s a message there. From whom, I have no idea. Telling me what? Again, I have no idea… I can only guess. I looked up the number 10 in terms of numerology, but the coins? I’m very open to interpretations. Needless to say, I’m voting that it means that our fortunes are changing for the better ;)

So… having said all that… this is what I found:

 

NUMBER 10


The number 10/1 brings all sorts of new changes into your life, and there seems to be an element of luck within those energies.  Through this vibration you have the insight to recognize and understand the needs of humanity, and the ability to bring peace and harmony to all.

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The number 10 relates to the Wheel of Life in the Tarot deck.  It is the first digit with the zero in the scale of vibrations and endows the individuals with extra vitality.  They may use this vitality to earn the crown of attainment and to maintain the symbol of wholeness.

Number 10 is the symbol of Love and Light.  It creates all that can be imagined and contains the code, image and ordain.  Image it and it shall be, ordain it and it will materialize.

The power of manifesting creative concepts into reality is inherent, but this power needs to be used with wisdom, since the power for absolute creation contains the polarity power for absolute destruction.  Self-discipline and infinite compassion must accompany the gift of the former in order to avoid the tragedy of the latter.

Number 10 is the symbol of ‘wholeness’  -  humanity 1 and God 0 in Unity -  the gift of power and protection.  People travelling the Day or Destiny number 10 are beginning new lessons in cycles of knowledge and great responsibility rests on these individuals.  Having reached this conversion point, they need to now use their strong willpower to undergo the discipline necessary to prepare for the Aquarian Age, where they will need to cope with new discoveries.  Having come through into this new energy they will then need to look at using their true leadership qualities if they are to live up to the life that they have chosen.

Number 10 is the symbol of ‘wholeness’  -  humanity 1 and God 0 in Unity -  the gift of power and protection.  People travelling the Day or Destiny number 10 are beginning new lessons in cycles of knowledge and great responsibility rests on these individuals.  Having reached this conversion point, they need to now use their strong willpower to undergo the discipline necessary to prepare for the Aquarian Age, where they will need to cope with new discoveries.  Having come through into this new energy they will then need to look at using their true leadership qualities if they are to live up to the life that they have chosen.
Number 10 is formed of the pillar and the circle.  It is both masculine and feminine, or Father/Mother principles.  Words keyed to the rhythm of 10 are created in a special sense.  They are productive and have the power of acquisition and attraction.  These qualities characterize the 10 person and he is seen as a centre of force whose influences are wide and pronounced.  This number responds to whatever Karmic reaction he experiences in life.  It may be good or evil, depending on whether he uses his power wisely in accordance with the dictates of Spirit, or yields to personal inclinations regardless of the promptings of the Higher self.  Whatever plans number 10 expresses himself upon, he is a person with power.

10 is the number from which all things come, and all must return.  It is considered the most occult of all Hebrew letters and is the fundamental and formative number of the Old Testament.  It intones the power of the manifested Universe and 10 is the pure white light of 1, and synthesizes all the colours of the spectrum.  It blends and harmonizes the tones of the 7 planes of being into a single rhythmic unity.

The Kabbalistic symbol of the 10 is the ‘Tree of Life’, with its 10 gleaming centres of life and power.  The Kabbalistic Tree is formed of the 10 centres or points of light through which the entire process of creation is given numerically.

The advanced individual who has 10 as his Destiny number fulfills his life more fruitfully by working towards peace and fellowship among the races and nations of the world.  His word is power and his presence, peace.

The Tarot symbol depicting this power is the Wheel of Fortune.  This person is always an old soul and is one who has had many lives on both the higher and lower degree and one who has learned how transitory are things of the earth alone.
10 signifies purification.

*In gratitude for information from http://numerology-thenumbersandtheirmeanings.blogspot.ie/2011/05/number-10.html

 
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Posted by on November 30, 2012 in symbolism

 

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